I've lost a pound this week - and gained a lump in my breast.
Which I'd happily trade for the pound.
Chances are it's nothing serious. Both my mom and my older sister have had false alarms, so I'm optimistic that my breast tissue is just as prone to these things as theirs. But boy does it feel like I've got a live grenade strapped to my body. And the powerless feeling is unfortunately very familiar. I remember it well from the illness I suffered during my late 20s.
So I've got to wait until the Monday after next for my (first) mammogram and breast ultrasound. Nine days. The only strategy I can think of for getting through this is just to throw myself into my housework and my fitness routine. Whatever it takes not to have time to dwell. It's actually kinda nice to have so much on my plate right now. Comfort food? I'm craving it like crazy, but these are things I have control over these days. I'll take what I can get. I'll be back later today with a more upbeat post, I promise!
17 comments:
I hope you're ok! I'm thinking and praying for you!
Let us know!
Angel
Hope everything's o.k.! I'll be thinking of you, too! Stay positive :)
Prayers for you.
Hopefully, it is just a common lump. May I suggest cutting out any caffiene during this time period?
My doc suggested that after I had one and my mams and ultrasound were ok. The lumps disappeared. I'm staying super optimistic for you.
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lpm
You are going to be just fine. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I think it's a good idea to keep up with your routines. You inspire so many people.
I have discovered a lump in my left breast just before summer... I did a mammo and a draining for studying it in laboratory... I was a little bit stressed because i have a poor health ( i have a very complicated cardiopathy ) ... In fact it was just a ball of fat, a lipome, i don't know the right name in english. I'm sure it's ok for you too.... I think of you ...
I'll be sending good thoughts your way too, and keeping up those routines is a great idea. It might help with the powerless feelings, because your house, your cooking and your fitness routines are things that are completely in your control. I'll bet its just one of those funky, harmless bumps we girls often get - but keep us posted!
Sending good thoughts your way.
I lit a candle and said a prayer for you. Sending you good thoughts.
Hope it is just a "that time of month" lump. Prayers being said for you.
If you must eat, splurge and buy a tray of cut up vegetables to munch on.
I've been reading your blog for a while -- I love it -- and I hope you will be okay, too, no matter what the outcome of that lump. Good luck, and Goddess bless. I'll be praying for you during this difficult time.
You girls are The Best. It means the world to have so many good thoughts and prayers headed up there for me!
It's been an odd couple of days, but I'm just taking it an hour at a time. And my kitchen is getting the brunt of my frustration. Should be nice and shiny when I'm finished! I will definitely keep y'all posted...
lpm, my doctor mentioned caffeine yesterday, so I'm switching to decaf pronto. A small sacrifice.
I'm sending lots of thoughts your way Jitterbug! Immerse yourself in your routine and maybe even take some time out to see a movie or read a good novel, escapism does have its advantages. I'm sure everything will be fine in the end but waiting can be so hard.
I'll be crossing my fingers and thinking of you! Please let us know how it goes.
The fact that your mom and sister both had false alarms is a good sign, but I know it's still impossible not to worry. But I am praying for you too! Let us know what happens!
Jitterbug!! I hope it's just a cyst or something. You will be in my thoughts and I am sending SO much positive energy your way!!!
I bless you with peace as you deal with the fearful thoughts. Fear does not come from God. Trust Him and He will give you peace.
Thank you all for your continued positive thoughts and prayers. I've been finding it easier to cope with things this week as I learn just how common these kinds of false alarms are for many women. And my sister and nieces are finally home from their vacation, so I got lots of hugs and kisses on Tuesday night!
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